I'm angry and sad together. help me out here.

by avengers 22 Replies latest jw friends

  • avengers
    avengers

    Recently we had a death in the family. My little baby, my granddaughter died before she reached the age of 2.
    I really loved that little girl. Now she's gone. This saddens me to no end. Not only do you feel the pain of my
    grandchild being gone, you also feel the pain of your children. As a grandparent you feel double pain.
    The funeral was attended by many, many Witnesses, circuit overseers, and many more from Bethel.They prayed and they prayed,
    but nothing helped. Jehovah didn't help the doctors with the most complicated heart surgery imagineable.
    Jehovah could have corrected this problem with a snap. But He didn't.
    Ofcourse the blood-issue was right up front. They started the operation without blood, but when there were complications
    they could not start up the "blood machine" fast enough to supply her heart with a reasonable amount of blood.
    Her heart was fatally damaged in these minutes. If they would have started the surgery with the "blood machine" on,
    then her chances to survive would have increased considerably. I am not a medical person. I do know though, that it was
    the influence of the
    Watchtower that caused these doctors to try and do complicated surgery without blood. Who-else I ask would
    motivate surgeons to do operations without blood?
    I'll just chalk her up to the rest of the "Victims of the Watchtower".
    I have come to realize that this Governing Body really doesn't care about us, nor our families.
    Even at the funeral the elders were more concerned, about how this funeral can be used as testimony to
    outsiders, than for us. I can finally write about it. The elders said also that they would visit me. They haven't yet.
    When you find out how many little lives were lost at the hand of the Watchtower you start thinking.
    Then you find out how many elders, trustworthy men appointed by the Spirit, abuse little girls like my little girl, then my heart turns.
    Then you find out they protect the perpetrators and not the little-ones, you would like to resort to physical action,
    which by the way I have not acted upon. Oh sweet temptation.
    I have in my life as a JW not partaken in any military deals. I was offered many jobs making parts for the military,
    which I did not take. This caused strain and stress in the family finances. Jehovah will help according to elder advice.
    Then you find out they have deals. In the military, in tobacco, and more. What is a man to do with such top level hypocrisy?
    What about the UN? 30 years they tell you not to associate with the UN, and then you find out they're doing it behind your back.

    This is all nothing new. There is something that pisses me off though, and I will tell you.

    People that abuse children are dispicable. So are those that protect such people.
    I have seen the suffering of the "Children of the Watchtower", and I see it happening in front of my eyes.
    I have no sympathy whatsoever for the Watchtower, only for some individual JW's whom are themselves
    victim. It's for those that I'm fighting.
    What I cannot handle is the WT sympathisers. .
    This board has helped me a lot and I try to give something back, not to irritate or demean. Ok, I make mistakes.
    I realize that and apologize. Hereby my apologies to Northern Girl for even thinking she was a troll.

    People who know the truth about the Watchtower and still say
    they have the Truth are in my eyes just as bad as the pedophiles and hypocrits, and have no sympathy with me.
    Someone who wants to be where they hurt children and knows the truth about it, is also just as bad as the perpetrator..

    Whom the shoe fits.

    Andy..

  • Nathan Natas
    Nathan Natas

    We're with you, Andy.

  • Angharad
    Angharad

    ((((((Andy))))

    I cant imagine the pain you have gone through, deepest c ondolences

  • Brummie
    Brummie

    I hear ya matey! .

    Yours is a tragic story, it bears heavy on the heart. Sometimes there's no comfort but I sure hope you feel the support you have here right now.

    You are a great support to many here.

    Brummie

  • smurfette
    smurfette

    Your words were very moving. I'm so sorry for your loss and pain.

    -Margy

  • Dansk
    Dansk

    Andy,

    We all feel for you my friend. There can be nothing more harrowing or unjust than the death of a child.

    I know you are awaiting a call from the elders and aren't sure whether to meet with them or not. Now, with all that you've stated in your post - and it was brave of you to be so open; I admire you for that - and especially with regard to this:

    I have come to realize that this Governing Body really doesn't care about us, nor our families.

    isn't the answer obvious!

    Andy, take control and cut them out of your life forever. I know you still have family in, but unless you shun Watchtower and its representatives you, and ultimately your family, will never be free.

    Dansk

  • greven
    greven

    ((((andy))))

    A very moving and stomach turning story! I feel for you and you family for your loss, the added hypocrasy makes it almost unbarable I can imagine...

    ((((andy))))

    Greven

  • anglise
    anglise

    Hallo Andy

    I am so sorry for your pain.

    I have mailed you.

    Anglise

  • teenyuck
    teenyuck

    {{Andy}} I am so sorry for your loss. My sincere condolences to you and your family.

    Tina

  • Robdar
    Robdar

    ((((((Andy)))))))

    I am so sad to hear of your loss. I am glad that you are speaking out. Being able to talk about it helps initiate healing.

    If you do not mind, I would like to add the link to your thread to my thread about the death of my family friend. We must stand united against the insidious WTS.

    Robyn

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