How do you feel towards JW's and the organization ? on July 18,2003 (page 2)

Nosferatu

I feel extremely robbed. They prevented me from exceeding in intelligence. I consider myself a very intelligent person when it comes to dealing with reality. I've excelled in understanding how the opposite sex works just recently, however I was robbed of a lot of experience I could have learned from when i was younger.

I also feel lied to. The whole 1914 generation thing was taught to me ever since I was young. When I found out that this had changed, I was enraged because I still believed it long after I left. I had that thinking of "what if they're right?" Not no more. They never were right.

As for how I view my life right now, I must say that I'm happy with it. However, I'm not happy with my past and I realize I'll never recapture those 13 years for as long as I live. All I can do is share in the experiences that my children will go through. It may not be the same, but I'm going to enjoy it and absorb as much joy as I can watching my children live a normal life.

sxybrwneyes

I feel that most Jw's are great people, and they are just doing what they think is right which is exactly what I did for 26 years. I still have all of my Jw friends that I grew up with because they are all pretty much like me, they had very controlling, abusive Jw parents and when they got older they just wanted to be free, so most of my friends have been inactive for a long time like me. My two best friends both had dads that were elders, one a P.O. and neither one of them are elders anymore, they are both inactive. Most of them still feel that it is the truth, though, and up until very recently I still believed it was too, but after all of the stuff I have been learning I dont beleive it anymore.

I am angry that the org took away all of the best years of my life but on the other hand it probably made me a better person with better morals. Who knows what kind of person I would have turned out without it.

I am just praying to Jehovah to direct me to the right path, whatever it might be.

mizpah

It is futile to live in regret of our Watchtower experiences. There were some very positive aspects of it...at least for me. I met and married my wife. We have a wonderful family. I learned a great deal about Bible history and doctrine. I also learned to express myself publicly. Over the years, I met some very interesting people of different cultures and ethnic backgrounds. All this was very positive.

Sure there are regrets. My biggest is being separated from my oldest daughter and her children. But, then, we raised her in the Watchtower organization to be an obedient and submissive person. Who can I blame?

There are good and bad experiences in all phases of our lives. We have them with family and at work. We certainly experienced them in the Watchtower Society. The important thing is not to dwell on the negatives. Life is too short. There is still beauty, joy and happiness to be had. Drink deep of life and be refreshed with the splendors of every day.

drwtsn32

I'm caring less and less about the org.... At first I was really worried about what JWs thought of me, about the lies that undoubtedly are going around about me, and was hoping the organization would just DIE. But as time goes on I just don't care about those things any more. And it's only been 9 months!

Still, I am trying not to be DF'd or DA'd... I'm enjoying having a half-way decent relationship with my JW family.

drwtsn32

It is futile to live in regret of our Watchtower experiences.

Agreed. As much as I detest the organization now, it helped make me who I am today.

I'm glad that I won't have to subject my future children to that rubbish, though.

micheal

I truly hate the org and what it has done to millions of people, man, so many are so unhappy and miserable, yet they stick around based on fear. That said there are many good and decent people inside that I just wish would "see the light" and make a courageous stand and get the hell out of there.

mikelites

Hi i don't often post here although i have been visiting the site since I left the WT some 8 years ago after being in for 13 years . But what never ceases to amaze me is how quick the absolute anger , / hate towards anything JW can re surface in me . only last week i was visiting my mum who is still a JW and because she had a sister round to share a meal & the conversation soon got round to the "TRUTH" i totally lost it once again !!even though i promised myself last time that it would be "the last time" which was over 1 year ago , it frightens me the emotions that can re-surface after all this time , and i hate myself for it !! i am seriously considering getting some counselling even though i hate that sort of thing anyone else in the same position?? please help me out!!

Piph

i am seriously considering getting some counselling even though i hate that sort of thing

I just wanted to note I'm considering seeing a counselor myself. I've seen one before when dealing with sexual abuse issues, and she helped me as much as she could. I found out later my issues went even deeper...but that's another story...

My fiancé suggested I look into counseling specifically for people trying to get out of a cult. I'm sure there's special, specific anger in people like us who grew up under the influence of mind control and I think it would be helpful me to maybe join a support group and spend time with other people who have been victims of mind control.

As far as my feelings toward JWs and the borg, I really have no beef with specific witnesses. Well...OK...I can think of one...but most of the elders I know are sweethearts, just a little dense. Seeing as how no one in my congregation knows I'm leaving yet, though, I haven't been the focus of concerted efforts to get me back. I'm really dreading that.

As far as the teachings, though, I've been able to tune them out until recently... We went to our DC last weekend and I still feel enraged when I think about the new release for children...how many millions of young lives are going to be damaged now...???????? I can't even think about it without being filled with rage. I want to BURN that book. (It probably wouldn't burn LOL) Now I can barely even sit through a meeting...

Nosferatu

I want to BURN that book.

You and me both. It's interesting how when I looked through that book, I realized what had caused a lot of my confidence and self-esteem problems. I had forgotten a lot of the JW teachings from when I was a child and I've been doing a lot of self-improvement in the last couple of years. This book really showed me the source of a lot of my problems. Sad to think that this book is supposed to "help" children.

Francois

I feel the same way I did the first time this question was asked: I loathe and despise the leadership and their so-called "theology" and especially their "theological warfare". Any organization that could publish an article about the Creator and title it Developing the Godly Quality of Hate, deserves nothing but the worst.

As for the boneheads that stay in this organization, I say WAKETHEFUCKUP.

How do you feel towards JW's and the organization ? on July 18,2003

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