This is Vicki Boer, Iam really the one that should be answering that question, and it is a difficult one to answer. It has been a difficult battle. There were times when I wanted to give up. THe watchtower does try to wear you down so that you don't have the energy to keep fighting. Then when it comes to a settlement with a gag order, most people take it, and justice is not served again. They know the ropes very well. Its sickening the dirty games they play. BUT>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>if someone does not fight them, the abuse of victums will never stop. So its not a matter of " should we do this?," its "yes, we have to do this"!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What choice did I have. Could I live the rest of my life knowing I could change child abuse policy and protect future children. I did not have a choice. My conscience would not allow me to give up. Even when times are hard like they are right now, I know I do not have a choice in this. Perhaps its a higher power directing me to clean out the sickness in the organization. Would you want your children to suffer the way I did? THe only support I had was my husband. We had no one else. THe rest of my family are jw's. Though recently my sister and brothers have left. If you knew you could save one life, but that it could have dire affects on your own, would you do it? Yes, to me its clear. I will just have to deal with what ever else this organization throws at me. Its just money, lives are far more important. Worst case happens, they take away all that I own financially, but they can't take my husband and kids from me. vicki boer