Hi, everyone. First and foremost, thank you so much to so many of you who have reached out to me over the past few days since my post on Sunday.
I am okay.
I'm not totally in the best mental state, however, I do have a very small amount of people that I can lean on for support. I relayed my feelings to a friend (my only friend, really), who took the initiative to inform my family. Since then, several family members have reached out and reopened the lines of communication - for now. As for attending therapy, I'm still forming my opinion. I've only been twice so far.
So now my question. Despite being "awake," I have resumed going to meetings simply so I can maintain (relatively) normal family ties after reinstatement. Some have sent me some "tips" for getting reinstated. One such tip was to put checks in the contribution box every so often, that way the elders would have to see I was donating. I never did this while I was "in". I only ever did it at conventions or assemblies. I don't want to seem "insincere" (how ironic) and I hate knowing that my money would more than likely go to paying legal fees or payouts related to victims of abuse. However, if it would help, I would be willing to do it every so often. So, good idea or bad idea?
Also, please don't think that I believe that the victims of abuse don't deserve the payouts because I whole heartedly believe they do. I just don't think it's right that the organization doesn't acknowledge this and in turn leads everyone to believe that their donations go towards building projects.