Myelaine,
It is hard to get things across through writing in a forum.
For instance you got out of what I wrote that I was saying that you are "boasting." That wasn't the point at all.
I think what is happening is that there is no possible way to explain things when there is no common frame of reference. We are also limited by our reading each other's words without knowing how much we know, how much and where each of us is limited, and the reasons we are in this discussion.
I'm a Christian of Jewish ancestry, and I am not arguing for the sake of my particular convictions. I am arguing forensically. You might be defending your faith in what you write.
I am often not emotionally connected to or even personally subscribe to what I write here. Others, I have learned are. This makes it difficult to get points across as there is sometimes a methodological disinterest on my part, but (I am only guessing) you are talking about what you believe, what you hold precious, your life's creed. This is not merely an analytical discussion for you, am I right?
I cannot tell. I can only say that I am either a very bad writer or something else going on keeps you focused on details that are not a part of my argument. I don't think you are a bad reader, lacking in intelligence or ignorant. On the contrary, I see a very wise person in what you write.
So something beyond our control is causing a great amount of interference in getting my point across. So I think it better that we just end this and realize that is may not be able to be communicated over the medium of a forum. In my experience we humans tend to project a lot of what is not there in these types of communications, and this can often make comprehension on both sides practically impossible.
Respectfully yours, DJ