When I grew up, I was told I would not have the time to finish
high school before Armageddon would come. This to me, was presented as a hard
fact. Something as obvious as a lighting in the sky.
Then, I graduated and one of my family members died in a car
accident. All of a sudden, I understood death was real and close. The
Generation teaching became laughable and I started to rationalize things by
telling myself that the new system was close, through my own death or
Armageddon, one way or another.
Still, it seems I never expected to get to 40! To be a full
blown adult… far from childhood, slowly getting old. And now, my parents and
their generation are literally starting to get old and die. The next generation
to go the same route is mine… death is real. It’s odd that you opened up this
topic as I was precisely thinking of this while driving to work this morning. I
was reflecting on the resentment I have towards the Watchtower for teaching my
family that doubting that Armageddon was always a few years away was in fact, a
lack of faith. That this lack of faith itself was almost deserving of death
along with all the others for that had no faith at all.
What strikes me even more is how these same observations could
have been done by the 40 years olf who lived in the 80s. They had seen plenty
of diehard Christians grow old and die, including their parents. Many of them
grew up in the truth and were fed the same thing: You and your family won’t
grow old. Yet, there they were, a few failed prophecies away (1878, 1914, 1925,
1975) and still, they convinced themselves and their children of the very same
lie. And if they didn’t believe it themselves, well, for the very least, like parrots,
they kept repeating it and preaching it over and over again. And plenty of new
members and children grew up believing it.
Frankly, I don’t know if I fear death more than others who never
heard such teachings. However, it seems that lately, I am more concerned by the
death of those that I love even more than mine. Perhaps the fact that JWs are
in denial of death makes it even harder for me to properly grieve; I don’t know.
All I know is that they should not carry on with this teaching as I certainly
feel betrayed today.