Thinkforyourself welcome
It's physiological manipulation and coercive control that we were instructed that the governing body were directed by god and knew what was best for us , even if we felt it was wrong ,cognitive dissonance eg the two witness rule when the authorities could be a witnesses and why would a child lie about the abuse .
Even today some witnesses believe child abuse is made up by apostates I asked about the child abuse issue to someone on the cart work that was there reply.
So it's only when you wake up to the control and the made up policy s of the org and then join a forum like this you see how illogical it all is that you can mentally leave then physically leave.