Quick recap. I'm 44, been DF'd about a 10 months. Got baptized when I was 18, in and out of the bOrg for years due to guilt. Finally woke up about 4 months ago.
So I read on here a lot, and I study other things about God and the Bible too, so with all that swimming around in my brain I have some weird dreams now and then. I hardly ever remember my dreams though. Like almost never. I'd say less than once a month do I even remember a little snippet of a dream and then it quickly fades. The other night I had a dream that was so very real, as real as real life and I remembered it for a couple days so I'd like to share it.
I was at an assembly. I had my beard and I wasn't wearing a suit or anything. I remember in my head I was there as an apostate observer. I was just going for fun, to see what's up or what has changed. I was there with some friends who were also apostates but I can't remember who they were.
I remember standing in the area outside the main hall doors and it was just this weird creepy vibe. A brother I know came up to me and kind of gave me a knowing look, then moved on. I felt like a spy, like I wasn't supposed to be there.
We go in and sit down. The hall was a big one with about 70% of the seats empty and everyone who was there was sitting all clumped together in the middle about mid way down. A Bethelite was the speaker and he was very rambunctious and speaking like Bro Lett and all he was talking about was money money money.
All the attendants were going round taking the count and they were dressed really weird. They had on these very bright colored flowing outfits that looked like feathers but all rainbow colored and they had these long feathery things on the ends of their arms and hands. Very strange. I think they were trying to impress the children and also they were taking donations.
We stayed and listened for a while and then we were about to leave and I woke up at this point.
I know it's not a very good dream but it was so real, and when I woke up I just remember thinking "this religion is dying"
I think there are some symbolic things that can be taken from the dream. Obviously relating to what all I've been reading.
The small attendance relates to the outflowing of people from the bOrg who are waking up, and all their lying to fudge the numbers to make it seem like things are growing.
The huddling together in the middle relates to the sheeplike demeanor of the ones who are still in desperately clinging to the "Truth"
The Bethel brother and his spiel on money reflection the current thrust of the bOrg and their dying numbers of donations coming in.
The look the former friend and brother gave me symbolizing the fact that many are waking up to the TATT.
The bizarre dress of the attendants speaks to the more and more bizarre message and the clear depiction of the GB and how bizarre they really are.
I could go on. I know this post is stupid and boring but I just wanted to share.