So i went to the Memorial the other night, there's a kingdom hall on the bus route back from a local college where I was doing some research and admiring the architecture. I'm in my street clothes, I look nice but I stood out like a sore thumb. I went in as it started and got a seat in the back. This lady next to me tried to show me scriptures, I kinda blew her off enough that she stopped and left me to myself. I got the vibe they do that knowingly or not to see if you'll obey them: Look at the scripture, listen to me read or explain it, do as I say. I'd welcome other posters thoughts on that.
As the speaker starts talking I see these two attendants come up behind me kinda to my right and hover and whisper to one another and then I heard the one say, 'Keep an eye on him.' The second usher went and sat a few rows ahead of me I guess in case I charged the stage or something. It creeped me out.
When they went to pass out the 'loaf (of bread, what happened to of bread, a loaf of what?)' the attendant turned half-around in his seat and eyed me like crazy, I dunno how he thought I didn't notice... or maybe he wanted to intimidate me, who knows. I got the impression they knew about Kingdom Hall crashes and expected me to stand up shout somethung and then chug the wine that isn't Jesus but I didn't, just passed it along like everybody else, I will never get over what a weird 'celebration that is. Then I just got up and left.
The whole thing creeped me out. If I wasn't a researcher and I didn't know anything about them and I saw them pull a stunt like that, I would get a bad impression immediately. I did get a bad impression immediately. But it doesn't change my impression of them: just more surveillance at the hands of 'loving shepherds.'