yes
ive been thinking about posting on this thread but quite frankly its embarressing to admit it
but yes I've had OCD for a number of years .
OCD sufferers might recognise this when i say OCD thoughts so repetitive and alarming at times they can reduce you to a jibbering mess.your struggle to fight them by the hour and at times it sends you to the brink of sanity .
The repetitive actions are the suffer attempting to control his her situation.to feel safe amid the obbsessional thoughts with which you are bombarded hour after hour, day and day ,month after month year after year.
OCD is a very tired mind struggling to keep it together .
The society did some articles on it once . They advised acknowledging them as wrong thoughts and pushiing/forcing them out , but failed to relise that that is exactly what OCD suffers are doing all the time.its why they have OCD the repetitious actions in an effort to feel safe and push out the distressing thoughts. .Infact the society was treating the problem like you would someone who was having sinfull thoughts .They just didnt seem to understand the reality of it at all.
By telling readers to force them out they were creating ahuge mental war and reinforcing the illness.
I tried to follow the advice which was from the society ...so it must be right .right?.....I felt sure that my prayers and efforts would be rewarded soon......but it made me worse .and of course i felt guilty because it wasnt working and even more guilty when i started ignoring their advice and thinking they were wrong.
It took me a while to relise that i was actually making making my self worse .the mental exhaustion was all comsuming so i went back to doing what books and mental health ppl advised..i felt so guilty allowing the thoughts to pass through with out condeming them and resisting them. and sure enough they began to get less and and i began to be able to see reality and and recognise that this was illness not me with evil wrong sinfull thoughts.
so now im loads better i hardly ever have obsessional thoughts or actions and if i do ive learnt how to let them pass and not to worry about it. .i recgonise them for what they are and im no longer afraid of them. It's now reduced to fairly normal worry levels .
I know other brothers and sisters with this illness and other similar problems.I think you prob have to be predisposed to it in the first place , that can't be blamied on the WTS .But I do beleive that the attitude of the WTS creates a perfect breeding ground for this type of thing partly through ignorance partly throught fear and partly through sheer self righteuosness. .
If any one thinks they have got OCD i would advise them to get advice from local mental health org's .gets some leaflets and books and begin to try to approach your problem slowly and in a way that works for you . you can get help and you can help your self even if your as big a coward as me .im the biggest coward under the sun
huge post .appologies