Welcome! I’ve been out mentally forever but have just started the journey of figuring out what I believe and it is exhausting.
For the first time I am able to pick and choose my beliefs. I listen to a lot of Christian podcasts and some teachings I believe and others I don’t, but if the message is good I will probably listen to the next one.
I am going to a church now that believes in the trinity and I don’t but I like the group that attends and they are big on community service and truly loving your neighbor. Plus I don’t get in trouble for actually defending my beliefs that differ from theirs.
This time can be scary and exciting, for once you get to choose what your relationship with god will be like or if you even want one or if you even believe in god. Have fun, take a lot of deep breaths, and enjoy the bumpy ride