It is not unusual for you Rosemarie, to experience confusion and depression in relation to your questioning Jehovah existence. I would say it is a healthy response.....but then, it was the same with me. It is probably the same with many people. When it comes to deeply significant life experience, such as love, the heart is the mechanism of expression and understanding. The mind does not understand it and is confused around such things as love. The heart does not need intellectual understanding; it lives the experience, it does what words and thoughts can never begin to grasp. Beliefs about God ( things taught to us as Jehovah's Witnesses) are mind generated interpretation . They shrink the Source of this universe into a tiny thing, an object, a mental engraven image. But, perhaps, the Source of this beautiful universe is not a thing or fragment of the universe. Perhaps God is the Whole; synonymous with Life and existence itself. Truth, then, God in other words, would not be knowable by the finite mind; but would rather be experienced via the realm of the heart. Could it be Rosemarie, that your heart is trying to tell you something? Could it be that there is an innate unspeakable knowledge of God that is rejecting empty intellectual beliefs about God? Is it any wonder you often experience deep depression and confusion around your beliefs about Jehovah? I have gone through very, very similar as you, little dear. There has been unspeakable agony. Yet, I see it now as a blessing. It drove me to question and seek deep within, where, if I was more content may never have ventured. The Truth is within Rosemarie. At the Center of your being, my being, and everyone's being. Those who venture there, meet in the same place were no walls of separation exist. God, is not a speck in the universe. The universe is a speck within God. We can not escape God, only be blind and numb to It's presence. Be still little dear. Be still. You are not alone. JamesT
Why does every little thing I do come back to haunt me?
by berylblue 21 Replies latest jw friends
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freein89
Beryl, honey bunch, you just gotta know you are a beautiful person. You are always there to listen and care and I am sorry for your daughters because they are missing out. A divided family is just the saddest thing I can think of. Please let us have the honor of being there for you no matter what.
Deb
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teenyuck
{{{{{Rosemarie}}}}} We are here for you Rosemarie....really. We will not laugh at you. We are here to help each other. PM, e-mail and I'll give you my phone #....we can talk. Talking always helps.....Tina
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cruzanheart
(((((Rosemarie))))) It's okay, honey, this too shall pass -- perhaps like a kidney stone, but it will pass!
Nina
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StinkyPantz
You are always supportive when I am down. . let me help you ((Rosemarie)). Would you like a call?
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Nosferatu
It's so utterly stupid But were I not the terrible person my daughters and others think I am this would not have happened
If it's so utterly stupid, why is it bothering you? You know how I view stupid things? I laugh at them. If you can't laugh at it and brush it off your shoulder, it's not stupid.
Others, including family members may think you're a terrible person, but what do you think of yourself? Are you letting their perception of you become yours? There's only one person that can affect your life - YOU. Sure, others can have an effect on the way you feel about yourself, but that can only happen if you allow it to happen. Are these people physically stopping you from reaching the goals you want to reach? If the answer is YES, then you can put a stop to it. If the answer is NO, then carry on with life. They're the ones who want to be left behind, don't let them keep you from moving ahead.
As for Jehovah, I'm also still clueless of whether I should believe in God or not. But I'll tell you something, he is not a major influence in my life. He doesn't have an impact on my daily activities. He doesn't have a say in the decisions I need to make. I treat God as just another person with no significance in my life. He's no better than the bus driver I never see, or some guy who works cash at Starbucks. God has never given me any good advice, or any bad advice. He is of no significance. I know Brad Pitt exists, but he has no meaning in my life.
I'm not sure what your situation is at the moment, but I hope you pull through. I'm working on a doozie myself. Take care.
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Robdar
Every thing that everyone does comes back to haunt them. You are not unique in this, my friend. I hope you feel better soon.
Robyn
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shera
I hope I can help in some sort of way....I'm here if you want to chat.
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shotgun
Hi ((((((((Rosemarie))))))))
It's something in the air...everyone I talk to is having some sort of crisis lately me included..It not just you sweet blue.
Take a little comfort from all the support on the forum....there seems to be alot of luvin headin your way today via....posters and friends on the forum....lots of luv...from shotgun
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obiwan
Ok young lady, front and center, spill it, we all want to help. You gave us a hint, so let us in on it. Have we ever let you down before? Give us a chance here, we like to help.