I don't mean this as an insult to the author of the letter as her intentions were good and from her heart, but some minds do reason differently.
Are you saying I'm special? Thanks, man.
Seriously though, I didn't write this to my parents in the letter, but those murderous thoughts didn't just go away because my friend yelled at me when we were kids. They didn't stop completely until I got out of the religion. I'm not a psycho. It just hurt so much to think about the people I loved dying forever.