Being honest with myself and my past

by Dawn 12 Replies latest jw friends

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  Dawn

  I was talking with my husband a few nights ago about a situation with my JW family that really upset me. It is truly a ridiculas situation which my husband (never a JW) agreed, and as I ranted on about their indoctrination and their beliefs he looked at me and said "you're right, but how can you act so shocked, you used to be just like them."

  Damn! He is right. I had exactly the same beliefs and would have behaved exactly the same way.

  I have two beautiful children that I love with all my heart. I loved them from the day they came into this world and would have died for them - I would die for them now. But when I was a believing JW I also would have refused them a blood transfusion, believing it was for their eternal benefit. I would have let them die.

  There but for the grace of God go I.

  I guess sometimes I need a reminder that we are all only human, and we can all be mislead to do things even though we have the right heart and the best intentions.

  I thank God that he did not let me make a decision I could not live with now.
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  RandomTask

  Hate the religion, not the people.
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  shamus

  Very interesting post! And very true... we used to be one of them. So unbalanced, so full of self-rightcheousness... and it's enough to make me sick.

  I am still ashamed of my past.
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  Guest 77

  Chalk it up as a learning experience. Many more experiences coming your way.

  Guest 77
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  blondie

  Dawn, a good reminder for all of us that once associated. I was just saying that to my husband last week. I only hope that they come to the same realization we have.

  Blondie
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  franklin J

  this is something we can all relate to.

  and yes...I too am greatful to "whomever" that I did not have to make a decision that would have affected my children, such as a blood transfusion, birthdays, etc.

  the religion does affect parents ability to "percieve"

  Frank
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  gumby

  Damn! He is right. I had exactly the same beliefs and would have behaved exactly the same way.

  You have said a mouthfull!

  So many of us here who blame parents, or other family, for being so cruel to us and shunning us.........forget that WE TOO, practiced this behavior. We think now that WE see the truth......so should they. It isn't reality. They act upon emotions produced from an organisation, and not their own hearts many times.

  Gumby
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  Flowerpetal

  Gumby:

  So many of us here who blame parents, or other family, for being so cruel to us and shunning us.........forget that WE TOO, practiced this behavior. We think now that WE see the truth......so should they. It isn't reality. They act upon emotions produced from an organisation, and not their own hearts many times.

  What I put in red I believe is EXACTLY what we all realize at whatever point we are at within or without the Borg when we take the blinders off.
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  morty

  Dawn,

  Dont be to hard on yourself.......It is the past and just be greatful that that situation was never brought to you...I think it is safe to asomme that alot of us have been in that situation, and at some point in our lifes we banged or heads against the wall asking 'WHY" were we fools? like I said, dont be to hard on yourself,and be greatful you have moved on to better yourself, to make the right decissions for your children and be happy with our souls.....

  mortons68.
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  Satanus

  Remembering this about myself always puts me in a loop w two conflicting facts: I have an aversion to dubs and dub style talk/life, and I was one for most of my life. I suppose people like mouthy, who 'love' dubs, have no problem w it.

  SS