by minimus 24 Replies latest jw friends
I have bunions from walking door to door all the damn time. Nah, I think it is possible for the pain to gradually diminish, if you are willing to gradually build up your atrophied social skills and find a meaning to your life. I think the pain that xjws feel is just everybody else's pain they've felt all their lives, we just aren't hitting the heavy narcotic of the WT anymore.
CZAR
I have only studied for a couple of years, but I can definatly see the impact it's caused on my life. I think I'll get over it eventually though.
I will never get over the torture I experienced being raised as a JW for 20 years. The horrible relationship I have had with my parents through the years, wetting the bed as a youth, suffering through various drug addictions in my life, haveing bullies pick on me in school and in the neighborhood and then my mother bragging throughout the neighborhood I was a virgin to the bullies parents giving the bullies more amunition to pick on me yet when I became a drug addict having her tell me not to tell the neighborhood kids, not dating and going to proms like regular teenagers, unable to get close to anybody or having a real friendships, not going to college and getting a real career because in the 80's it was wrong for witness youths to go to college, getting laughed at in school on Mondays because I knocked on classmates doors selling them magazines on Sunday afternoon,not being able to talk to anyone I grew up with because I got DF'd and I can go on and on.
Yup, I have had a pretty miserable meaningless existence on this planet. I can only hope that if there is such a thing as reincarnation I dont live my life over and over, I would have to sit through 20 hot summers conventions eating burrittos and suffering in the heat at Belmont racetrack!
yes they have scarred me...
((((((((gotmyfortyhomey)))))))
you may not see it right now but i think one day you will see that the torturous life some of us endured made us stronger, more sensitive, more intelligent, more patient, more caring ..all around better people. i think one day we'll be able to take the good and discard the pain. there is some positive in our past......
you'll see.
yes, they have scarred me for life, and no, it will never go away, but ...
Edited to say: No, it will never go away, but they WILL NOT WIN!!!!
peace, love & happiness
tal
Yes, they have scarred me for life. However, they are not the only reason for my scars. Part of it was my depression... so I can't give them all the blame. Had I been thinking correctly I would never have been duped into the sick religion.
I am sure a lot smarter now, and, though I regret it, it is a part of me now, just like my bum ankle. Something that you live with and move on with.
Shamus.
We have to try to work thru the pain and bad experiences that we might have had to deal with. It's important to DEAL with these things with the purpose of trying to heal, as time goes on.
Yes, it has, and I don't think it will ever completely go away, honestly the jw religion enters my thoughts almost everyday, I feel robbed and saddened that all my family is still stuck in it, and can't see it for what it is.
I am sickened that they (the Watchtower) can keep the farce going, year after year, I keep waiting for the fall out, the 1995 generation change, should of open the flood gates, but it didn't,
I find it amazing that the Watchtowers and Awakes and all the books and other publications, do not stand the test of time. Every 20 years or so, it's "new light" and all the material covered has been updated, their way of saying it was wrong. How many publications can you read from 1879-1979, that are still 100% accurate in JW terms ??????? probaly a short list.
Do people want to believe so badly, even if it is wrong, kinda sounds like Mulder on the X-files doesn't it.
6,000,000 witnesses and 6,000,000,000 people on the planet, thats 0.1% of the population, and I get stuck with my family
I would of rather won the lottery.
Run don't walk---think about it in a different way. If you weren't ever a JW, you could have been a Moonie, a Scientologist, etc. Scores of people are living proof that unhappiness abounds in every culture and society. We are not the only ones pained here. If a person was raised by Communist parents in China and had absolutely no freedoms, yet yearned for having some semblance of a real life under a form of democracy, would it be healthy to think back to what could've been, if you were given the chance? It's too late now. I try to think of living for today and the future rather than concentrating on the sad past.
