Do i still believe in GOD?

smoky21

Hi, everyone
I not new new... i have been here before under a different user, i just forgot my log-in info after a long time...so i created a new one.I from time to time post something. Usually I just like reading post, cuz you guys are great.
I consider myself a Atheist. I came to this conclusion a few years ago, but i think I have always been skeptical about god's existence.I don’t ever remember having experiencing the holy spirit, or anything supernatural Good or Evil, so I cannot relate to people who have.I always thought I was good person (never steal, fornicated or hurt anyone), yet never felt blessed by god. I never felt good enough.What da Phuck do I need to do to get Gods Approval?...at the end...its cuz nobody is home up there.
I had a generally mild traumatic experience this past weekend. I decided to go get me a quick bite to eat at small Fast food place, it was slow at the time and there was just one other customer that placed a order after me. He seemed like a nice older man, we chatted about food, and he even recommended me a good fried chicken place to go. Once my order was ready i picked it up, left, and said goodbye. I got into my car and drove about 1/2 mile to a grocery store to do some shopping. Then noticed a problem I CANT FIND MY WALLET!!!! (enter dramatic music here). I rushed back (10 min later). It turns out, I (like a dumbass) left my wallet on the counter of pickup window of the Fast food place, and the nice older man took it.
I immediately felt shame, and verbally beat myself for pucking up. I also then felt confused, why did he take it? Why didn’t he turn it in to the establishment? then...(here is the kicker) I started to feel that this older man is going to HELL. HELL. God is going to punish this man.
Why was I feeling this way? Could it be that, I have not totally stop believing in God? Hmmm. Could it be just a force of years of habit?My experience is not that traumatic compare to, for example: losing a love one. Could extreme emotional trauma drive you back (to religion)?
Has anyone ever had such a crisis of faith or no faith, after a traumatic experience?

ThanksSmoky

cofty

Hi Smoky, welcome back. What was your old username?

Interesting experience. I think the desire for justice is a big factor in the invention of god.

I have to say that in my own case nothing has ever caused me to question my disbelief. There are atheists in foxholes.

Giordano

I was trout fishing along a stream. I heard a bee buzz close by...... then this bang. My body knew before my brain Gunshots! And i just dropped into the stream managed to hold on to my fly pole lol.

The shooting continued for 6 or 7 more rounds then I see something shinny bright and it's an empty can of beer floating along then a couple of more. I put it together that some idiot who didn't know I was fishing was upstream target shooting and the rounds kept going or ricocheted... whatever. I lay in the mud until I heard a car drive off.

I made it off the stream decided to call it a day. Driving home and it hit me I hadn't thought to pray for god to help me out. Never crossed my mind........... that's when I realized I was past the god thing.

Village Idiot

How do you know he took the wallet? He may not have even noticed it and somebody else picked it up.

smoky21

cofty,

Yes I'm still using my old username Smoky. ha ha.

bye the way....I found my wallet in my mailbox the following morning.

I guess the older man did have some semblance of a conscious. Thought he did not return my $180 dollars....Bastard!!!! he's going to Hell alright!!!!!

smoky21

VI,

I'm not absolutely sure who took it. The patrons running the Fast food place told me that he was the last customer, before i got back to ask around. (during our conv. older man was complaining that he only had $6 to spend too) the Patrons seemed concerned also that it happened in his establishment, funny things though they said there are no cameras. I found that suspicious , being that its not the bests of neighborhoods, & there was 1" thick clear wall between them and customers like the Currency Exchange stores here in the US. I guess it does not matter, who took it. my feeling where the same.

Bastard!!!!!! GO TO HELL!!!!!

stuffwotifink

There is a difference between you wanting him to go to hell and you thinking he actually might.
It seems more like you are wishing for a moment that it was true - rather than thinking it actually is true.

smoky21

hmmm. Your right Stuffwotifink.

Like Cofty, mentioned in his post. I guess I felt the need for justice, and him going to hell is more common way of thinking for a christian raised person.

'What goes around, comes around' (karma) is more likely the montra I will use to forget about it.

Coded Logic

I think for a lot of people "God" is a real person to them. A real friend. Shaking that delusion can be more than a bit difficult.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yqj1DhUKJco

Saved_JW

I have to say that in my own case nothing has ever caused me to question my disbelief. There are atheists in foxholes

@COFTY; I have found that anybody who does not take a step back and question their own assumptions are usually blind to them.

As a theist, I constantly challenge my own position with new arguments I encounter. This has always been a good way for me to evaluate the consistency of my own point of view. Just a thought.

Do i still believe in GOD?

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