Hello one and all.
I've been a lurker on here for a few weeks now and i am finally starting to post on some threads. A lot of the subjects that i wanted to talk about have already been covered so i wont bother restarting a topic that's been done to death.
Im a 3rd generation, born-in, JW. Currently faded. I basically moved to another part of the country and didn't tell anybody my new address. I have no family left so it was easy for me. When i was an active JW i was a full-on, bible thumping believer. Although i was very compassionate to others. I never did agree with shunning and i never practiced that.
As you may have guessed from the title of this thread, im a Satanist. LaVeyan Satanist to be precise. It's not something i worked on nor did i change aspects of my life or personality in order to conform to Satanic precepts. I read the Satanic Bible and other works by Anton LaVey, along with a study of the occult and history of religion and it's superstitious delusions. I noticed that i agreed with all of it. So decided to stop living my life for an organization and live it all for myself. Although the occult interests me immensely, i regard it as just play and dont for a second believe in literal magic or the devil or and gods or demons etc.
I realized i was a Satanist while a JW. I always felt closer to the character Satan in the bible than any other character. Here is Satan, a character who questions authority, who fights against a tyrannical god who kills at will. That, i think, is a person worthy of imitation. I did not think it healthy or wise to restrict my desires whether they be carnal or anything else. So many JWs are sexually repressed and fighting addictions to pornography, masturbation, fetishes, homosexual desires etc. I found that by indulging in whatever i wanted removed these. I learned that i either didn't like it, or i liked it very much so continued doing it. So i basically lived the life of a satanist while fading from the organization. I would give talks on the platform telling the audience what they'd want to hear, but include subtle hand gestures or words and i even had various tattoos under my cheap suit.
I find it hilarious that this religion claims to be protected by their impotent god Jehovah, yet there was, for a few years, a satanist on their platform.
So all in all im a lot happier. I know who i am, i like myself and i wish no harm on others who wish me no harm. Im enjoying the posts on here.