I've been an insomniac/night owl since I was born. It's a curse and causes lots of problems in my marriage. I have an obsession and can't find an answer to questions that keep going through my mind. I fall asleep at 7 p.m, then get a second wind at 12 p.m. and am up mostly the whole night. By 4 a.m., again, I'm tired and sleep til 9. I am lucky I don't have a job outside the house, cuz I would be fired. Really, I did have a job for 20 years that I went to, unfailingly, on time and ready for work. Now that I've gotten older (43), I just give in to whatever my body needs. Unfortunately, it does NOT need a lot of sleep. I wonder if I don't go to sleep too much BECAUSE I have nightmares and my body/mind is scared because of what it will see in its dreams. I don't know. I am fortunate that I have the situation to sleep in, because if I didn't I'd probably be out on the streets.
I've always been hyperactive, but it's gotten particularly worse as I've gotten older. I still have the desire there, the ENERGY is not there, though. I'm always physically and mentally tired, but my body doesn't give up. I always have to know the news going on.. and I can't sleep cuz I think I'm missing something. Mabe that's another obsession. I think it stems from thinking when I was younger and a JW that if I went to sleep that I would miss Armagheddon and I would die. I wanted to BE THERE for my death. I dunno.. stupid.
However, it's caused a lot of problems in my marriage. He's a sleeper, I'm not. He's gotten USED TO sleeping with the television news on all night.. really LOUD because I'm half deaf with the fan going. I smoke, he doesn't. I smoke at night.. so this poor man is subjected to loud news all night and smoke... I am a terrible wife, I guess. But if I don't have complete freedom at night, waking up and seeing some news or something on television, I think that the dark is gonna get me.
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