Beautifulmind you make so much sense and your heart reflects the inevitable hurt of realizing firsthand those you had genuinely viewed as "friends" aren't.
They are now no where to be seen - and should you ever see them, they will shun you.
That says it all about the quality of those friendships.
And, sure, even though you would have known that is the most likely outcome (because you have seen and heard it happen to others), when you go through it yourself, you feel unbelievable waves of strong mixed emotions.
It's called "Being human" and having a heart that cares about friendships and relationships but being so over conditional, fake friendships..
So, even though this is a very sad experience, it also presents a fantastic opportunity to aproach your new "social" life with a determination to develop genuine friendships with people who love and accept you for who you are.
Oh, I also felt quite emotional when you talked about still having your husband and babies - what a very promising basis upon which to build and nuture your new life! Best! Steve.