Sounds like you are at a crossroad in life. What an excellent opportunity to just let go and begin again...re-group. Take a look at where you are at in life, what you want, what you need. Research your own perceptions and your cognition about life.
Sounds scary, but actually, it can be a wonderful journey. Trust your instincts. Seek answers to your questions. Meditate, read. You are free now to look beyond the mindset of only one group of people.
Learn to love yourself first and branch out from there. One day at a time.
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