You are worth a few hundred bucks a year to them. That's all. That's it. There is nothing else. No more. Nada. Zip. Zero.
Buy their books, sell their books and send them the money from those sales. Go to the assemblies and buy new books. Pay for parking at the assemblies. They get the dough. Buy their tapes, buy their CD's, buy whatever it is that they are selling, and they are happy and will leave you alone. Question anything and they will ruin your life.
After all, you're only worth a few hundred bucks a year to them, and their are six million others just like you. Each of you are worth a dollar amount to them: in poorer countries you are worth only a few bucks and in richer countries a few hundred bucks. Pioneers are worth perhaps a thousand or so bucks.
They don't know you, they don't want to know you, they won't help you if you need it, they don't care about you, they don't care about your familiy, they don't care about any of your problems, and they won't give you anything even after you spent forty, fifty, sixty, seventy years of your life in devotion and conformity to them unless you are one of their elite.
You only worth a few hundred bucks a year to them.
Get used to it. You are just a dub. And they don't care.
Farkel