I am a believer, but have struggled with some bible subjects. The one that has caused me the most questions, and for the longest time (even as a JW) is the geneology of Jesus found in the first 17 verses of Matthew.
On the one hand there is an incredible amount of scientific evidence supporting man's existence here on earth for well past 6,000 years. I did a thesis paper in archeology on dating techniques so I am familiar with these techniques and I believe they are credible.
I could toss this section of Matthew aside as some sort of mistake except for another type of evidence - the mathmatical codes contained in these verses. For example, verses 1-11 (the first main section) there are 49 Greek words used (divisible by 7), of these 49 words, The number of those beginning with a vowel is 28 (again divisible by 7), the number of words beginning with a consonant is 21 (divisible by 7), the total number of letters in these 49 words is exactly 266 (divisible by 7)...for the sake of posting length I will stop here and not list all 24+ mathmatical codes found in the Greek text that are divisible by 7 in this particular section. However - it is clear that there is something special about this set of scriptures - the geneology of Jesus. It seems as though God wanted to make it clear to those who were searching that this was correct - this was the actual geneology - it was not a mistake.
So now I have colliding data......physical data on the one hand that supports man's existence longer than 6,000 years, mathmatical data on the other hand that supports divine inspiration of a set of scriptures that say the opposite.
There must be some answer that explains this and encompases both sets of facts/data - something beyond our current understanding. Then it hit me.....the epiphany.........what if the answer isn't what it's all about?! What if it's the search, the journey to the answer that really matters? I remembered the scripture in Matthew when Jesus said to keep knocking, and to keep seeking. If the answer was the most important thing, wouldn't he give it the first time we asked? But he puts the focus on the searching part - not the answer. Then I remembered that old piece of eastern wisdom "sometimes the journey is more important than the destination".
So perhaps there is an answer that explains it all - but to find it we have to be willing to open our mind to other possibilities, put down our biases, and really see the world, the universe with a "new" mind. And maybe that's the purpose of these tough riddles - to help us grow.
I will still struggle over this riddle and will toss around possibilities, probably until the day I die. But I realize something now - that's ok. Finding the answer isn't what's most important - it's the fact that I have the freedom to search for it. I no longer have to accept whatever doctrine is spoon fed to me by the "society" and close my mind off to any other facts or possibilities. I have the freedom to wonder, to discover, and to learn. And maybe that's what IS most important.