I must be a unusual ex-JW, according to the propaganda the WTS tells the rank and file about ex-JWs....
Because :
I'm not disfellowshipped, nor have I disassociated myself (though I have thought about it).
I am not sexually promiscuous. I never "strayed" while I was a JW, and now that I am out, it's not like I am sleeping with a different guy every week!
I don't smoke, I don't take drugs, and although I like the occasional drink, I'm not the sort of person who'll go out and get herself drunk.
I don't even swear!
I've never picketed an assembly. I'd love to, in the manner of outnfree - you go girl! My only form of "protest" is what I say here, and also my quietly leaving the cong without a good reason why. I let my feet do the talking!
Depression? Had it since I was 11, though it has lifted somewhat since I left. I feel better about myself, I have more confidence in my decisions, and I have learnt not to be co-dependant upon a religion that falsely claims to be chosen by God.
I did not leave because I "couldn't live up the standards", or "secretly did something wrong and got caught". I lived up to all the standards of the org, yet knew there was something wrong, without fully being able to put my finger on it. Finally all the pieces started to be put together, and I realised that I conscienciously could no longer support a corrupt organization. Jehovah IS NOT using them. It was so obvious. I left willingly, despite losing my "friends" in the process.
And I have to say my life is MUCH happier since I left. I do not regret the decision I have made!