I was thinking about this in several areas today.
1) District conventions and house-to-house work
If you were a Witness for a long time, you probably remember a time when going to the conventions seemed perfectly "normal" to you: it was absolutely "the thing" to sit in a sports arena all day listening to Bible talks and counsel from men in suits.
But at some point, did you ever start to feel like you were participating in a cultural relic, so to speak?
As in, "Here it is, the 1990's, and the Society is still using fundamentally the same old format they've been using all century long. No nods to technology or people's different ways of processing information today: just the same old message in the same old package."
I got that feeling. And I also got it eventually in the door-to-door work: something that had passed its best-before date and now felt more like participating in a historical reenactment. No more being invited in, rarely a magazine placement (let alone a book or a Bible study), and even if someone did achieve something, you got the feeling the householder wasn't nearly as interested as we liked to think they might be. Whereas I remember having a very different feeling about door-to-door in the 1970's and 1980's.
2) Field service
You know how the joys of sacred service are just supposed to increase as you do more in God's work? It kind of ended up the reverse for me.
In the years after my baptism, I typically stayed well ahead of the congregation average hours. But I only auxiliary pioneered once, under pressure because all the ministerial servants and elders were "supposed" to do it one April. So I ran all over the place getting my time in that month--and after that, I never recorded more than 10 hours in service again. The juice just went out of the experience for me. I was already having some doubts at the time of auxiliary pioneering, and I found I didn't like all the "stretching" that went on among the pioneers to get their time in (of course I worked a lot with them that month).
Has anyone else had similar feelings or experiences?
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