I'm ready to say goodbye! (page 3)

talesin

LOL back {{{smile}}} don't give up the quest, neither will I.

"The higher you build your barriers, the taller I become
The farther you take my rights away, the faster I will run
You can't deny me
You can't decide to turn your face away

But there's something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Though you're doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone, oh no
There's something inside so strong, oh
Something inside ? so strong"

Sunspot

Dearest Terri!!!!!

On one hand, I'm sorry for yet another "emptiness" facing you at this time....but on the other hand, you NOW have room to make NEW advancements in two major areas, free and clear!!!!

This is really terrific to anticipate, even if it takes a while to "sink in!" I KNOW I owe you two emails on two different subjects (sorry) but I've been absorbed with another project that has kept me quite busy! About 15 minutes ago (before I logged on here) something very sweet and tremendously insightful hit me---SO HARD that it took my breath away and I sat here and sobbed like a baby! (Comforting words I never expected) I'll share it with you soon, and only hope that *I* can give even a fraction of comfort to YOU right now, as I've just received myself! (I hope this makes sense, I'm still pretty emotional)

You KNOW that I love ya, girlfriend.....take care, and I'll be writing soon...

HUGS,

Annie

talesin

ball.

yes .... absitivvely! posilutely! we'll get there, not everyone is jaded, keep believin' ...

t

ball.

I must go to bed shortly its GMT time here (nearly 3am)

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Sunnygal41

Tal, thank you for that reminder..............I have been working on the black and white thinking that those types of comments and situations tend to engender in us. I told him last night that obviously we had come to a spot in our relationship road where our needs and wants both were quite different, and there was no shame in saying we both gave it a good try. I will of course pray that he chooses to live a healthier life than what he is doing right now. I have some serious times ahead of me..............the job situation.........whether I want to continue living here in CT or do I want to pack it all up and move...............my heart has always been in the Adirondacks.............that's where my family were born and raised.............my cousin and aunt and uncle are up there................I have more in common with them than I do with my mom or sister right now..............I would like to wake up each morning to a slower paced lifestyle...........I'd like to buy my own home, I'd like to get out of debt and find the job of my soul.............................I do believe that we all have a path to walk and that everything will be okay..................sometimes it can be scary, but, I'm not alone.

Deep gratitude for all of you on here who are a support network for me right now..........and, can't wait to meet someday!

Hugs,

Terri

calamityjane

We're all here for you. Good luck.

love

cj

Maverick

Terri please have a seat!

Do you think this new developement is a continuation of the other thing that happened at your job with the BOE? Could the incident with your superior been more than just a momentary laps in judgment? Women are good sufferers. What I mean is they are generally stronger emotionally than men and will tolerate a lot more pain. Could it be that you hit your limit both personally and professionally? Growning pains maybe? Often a woman, and this is NOT a slight, will have a replacement lined up when they give their lover the flick. But if the pain gets to be too much they will dump him regardless. Take a deep breath, take some time to access what is going on around you. And deep down you do know, so don't tell yourself you don't. You may not be at the bottom yet but you will survive. I am sure you will learn from this. You don't need us men to be all that you can be. And a real man will not feel threatened by that fact!

You may get up now! Maverick

Sunnygal41

Maverick, you are an extremely insightful person, and contrary to your belief, a very sensitive one. You are absolutely correct in what you say. The pain and chaos from this relationship had boiled over into my professional life................the old saying if it doesn't come out one way it will another comes to mind..............I plead temporary insanity! LOL! But, I'm sane now. I have NO ONE on the back burner, which makes me feel wonderful. You've known for a while that I had serious problems, and that loyalty or whatever label you want to slap on there kept me from doing what I needed to do to protect me. Bottom line is I am one hell of a great person, Dean is too, except our paths in life have diverged. His idea of having fun is caught up in his addiction. He is doing the same things he was doing when he was a young teenager. He's lost his job, smashed his car to smithereens and now the relationship is over too. I don't hate him, I wish him the best, but, it's time I took care of myself. I've got some great friends here, in fact I spoke with someone this morning from JWD, a woman, and we just had the greeatest time. It's going to take time for me to reclaim and heal all my parts, and I may be making a change of residence also.........I don't want to go nuts and dump everything without thinking things through.

Thanks for your support,

Terri

I'm ready to say goodbye!

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