I would go and see my oldest son. He hasn't forgiven me for being a witness when his dad and I split up and still wont' talk to me even though I quit. So since I can't talk to him or go see him, if I could spend just one day as a fly on the wall with him even if he didn't know, at least I would have something.
At least there are some mothers in this world that care. That's very touching.