Xena,
I haven't really posted much on your other threads because I don't know what to say
I know how you feel. It is so hard for me to find the words, also. Many times, when my heart is bleeding for someone, I don't say anything at all, because I just can't. Most the time I feel as though my words are so unbelievably inadequate that they sound hollow or insincere. So, unless we are both screwed up (oh, Lord, not that!), you are pretty normal!
Shotgun -
I almost cried when I saw this thread...and that's something I don't do much anymore.. I've made myself so cold and hard inside to block the everyday pain I feel that it's usually only my daughter that makes me cry... Thanks growedup
Oh yeah, great! Fine! Now you're making ME cry! And you call GUMBY a bastard!!!
I might rent old Yeller tonight just to get the emotional drain over..
fwiw - I have found that no matter how hard I try to put something in my past, until I get the emotional release over and done with, it still nags at me. You deserve a good cry, not only for what you've been through, but for your emotional health and future. So, if ya gotta - watch 'Old Yeller' twice, but get it out - of course, when you are ready!
BTW I did post a few comments on the meeting before I saw this thread
I saw that about three minutes after I posted this thread. After I saw it, I felt kind of silly for starting it, so thanks for making me feel better about it!
Your bastardette friend,
growedup