Welcome to the forum, Kibi !
A lot of people here, as you'll read have gone thru a lot of depression and other 'W i T hdrawal' Symptoms in leaving the W T S. It will pass with time... I've been 'fading' for a number of years, tho' the understanding and healing accelerated more in the 3 months I've been here, than in all the years suffering alone.
There is 'strength in numbers'!
Never Surrender...!