Which was scarier... the torture scenario or the Armageddon scenario?

by Gopher 32 Replies latest watchtower beliefs

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  lisavegas420

  Armegeddon, didn't frighten me, because unlike that poor little girl and her dolly in the "purple picture" I wasn't going to be swallowed up by some great chasm in the earth, as I was a good little dubbie.

  xjw_b12,

  How did you know you were a 'good little dubbie?

  I was constantly reminded how bad I was and that it was very unlikely that I would make it if I didn't change my ways....This started from the time I was old enough to understand probably 4 or 5. So, I never felt that I was good enough.....Did someone, your parents or elders, family ect...tell you that you were doing everything right?

  Lisa
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  glitter

  I was terrified of the Great Tribulation.
  
  If I was in bed but not quite asleep and someone knocked on the door I sometimes used to get scared that it was someone coming to persecute us and that my dad would betray us.
  I used to practise trying to be perfectly still and quiet in case I had to hide or pretend to be dead (this was at about age SIX).
  
  At the KH I used to always want to sit out of the line of fire from the main door and the fire-exit incase soldiers came in so I'd have time to get under the chairs or under bodies.
  
  I was scared of having to set fire to my mum.
  
  These things have been a reality in the lives of too many children throughout history. No book publishing company in a rich, generally-safe, FREE nation has any business telling children in a rich, generally-safe, FREE nation that these things are GOING to happen to them.
  
  The only part of Armageddon I was scared of (being a good little JW) was my non-JW friends dying - I wanted Armageddon to come when they were staying at our house so we could take them to the KH with us and we'd all be safe.
  I used to imagine walking to the hall during Armageddon (obviously no busses would be running during the Big A).
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  Been there

  First off........(((((((((((To all the little terrified children, big and small)))))))))))))

  It all scared me to death. I was in early grade school at a volatile time in history. We had the very real scare of the Atomic Bomb, Vietnam, Malawi, and the Cuban Missile Crisis. My Grandmother was in on the letter writing campaigns to the African governments for Malawi. I heard all the torture stories of women and children. I knew I could not withstand torture. Looking back the witnesses were just using Malawi as a scare tactic. Turns out you didn't have to be a JW in Africa to be tortured, just a black African.

  I knew I could never be good enough for God for me to survive Armageddon. I was doomed because I knew God could read my heart and he knew I hated him for being so mean, I could not love him. I could not stand the thought of all the death and destruction at his hands.

  I WAS tortured (mentally) well into adulthood even though I physically walked away at 18. I have since found the loving God I always knew him in my heart to be. My ultimate revenge was to vow never to offer up one of my children to the vengeful God I was raised on, they were never touched by the fear and torment that was my life for 18 years. Thanks to this forum the cloud of fear I carried all those years is gone. I am Free. Thank you all.