Thankyou Craig
You suppose that I have gotten past step number 1 in what you say, when in effect I haven't. Yes this is alot of "incredible information availiable" and its overwhelming and emotional, I don't discredit that at all. But without sounding like I'm discrediting it ( I'm not) It is a drop in th ocean of JW experiences. (Both pro and ex) You see it is Ex experiences that are voiced here, you take me on the assumption that I don't grasp or understand these in the least, when infact I do. I understand them perfectly. Understand that these are experiences you see to back up what you and many others feel. Don't you think that there are thousands of experiences converse to yours and others here? Of course there is. Don't you think they have gone through hardships to get in the Truth/Stay in it? Despite shunning from families, friends, work colleagues? You say yourselves how difficult it was.
None of this is to belittle your experiences, not at all. Its just to get you to see that there is still the other side to all this.
I wish you the best too, but I wish most that after experiencing such hardships as you say you have, you have some understanding for those still experiencing the same in doing what they feel is right too.
Scoob