When You Were A Witness---Were You Ever On A Spiritual "High"?

by minimus 23 Replies latest jw friends

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  orangefatcat

  Yes I have to admit it that there were times I was on a "spiritual high", I was always gung ho when assemblies came around. I use to get some parts on assemblies. I was blessed with the gift to speak eloquently and give talks on the spur of the moment. I always had parts on all the meetings except the WTof course.

  I use to have the CO and DO over for meals when they visited our hall. I really enjoyed those happier years. But as the years passed and I got married everything change big time. I lost my zeal to pioneer. I was fed up with the back bitting in the hall. and gossip, gossip that was cruel and unkind. I deplore hurting others. I would rather eat a bucket of nails instead of hurting anyone,

  Its odd how over the years as I was getting older I could see how transparent people were. Don't get me wrong there are some really nice JW and I miss their association. I am so glad that I have learned the deciet of the Watchtower Organization, but I am sad that I did loss my friends.

  I was not an ass kisser as I was a sister, so I wouldn't bother. I did like it when anyone would comment me for my zeal and good works and that alone gave me a Spritual High.

  I wish now that I had placed that zeal on really learning if the truth was the truth. I did a lot of research prior to my baptism, however all the things I learned were only the things the society wants you to learn. They bury their lies and say that witnesses are in the wrong because they jump to conclusion. Like 1975, But we all know they did say that 1975 would be the end.

  So I am very happy now and wish that I hadn't spend 38 years in the org. Oh well its like my dear Aunt said to me, "Well Terry its better late then never". How true.

  Orangefatcat
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  blondie

  Never found that spiritual "high" and found it suspicious. I tend to be a logical type person and not guided by emotion alone. That is probably why I was always searching as a JW. I always felt it was better to be balanced. I had seen too many JWs on highs that came crashing down when reality kicked them in the arse.

  Blondie
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  gumby

  Alright...I'll be serious.

  There were times when I felt like a "Born Again Dub" I almost felt while I was engaging in the Ministry I couldn't be hurt as Jehovah's spirit was with me and the group. I felt Jehovah revealed scriptures to me while on studies and going door to door. I felt Jehovah really directed things in my life. I had that warm secure feeling inside that Christians say they have when they are right with Jesus.

  Emotions can play quite the tricks on peoples minds and hearts. The bible was correct about "guarding the heart". Logic, reasoning, and facts, should come before emotions. Emotions can lie.

  Gumby
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  lilsx1

  I don't think the JW "religion" gave me a high so much as the rare moments when they read something out of the bible or something that was purely God and not their teachings... so I would say the highs came from the bible teaching in the rare moments they actually used it and not from the religion. I get spiritual highs more now that I am out than I ever did in.
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  minimus

  Most of the JWs that got "high" were new ones. The ones that were in for a while got "high" because they were emotional types to begin with. Once the "high" ended, the letdown was terrible. Then the "spiritual junkies" would either go over the deep end and not even go in service the next month or would be severely, chronically depressed until the next wave of enthusiasm came over them to ease their guilt......a vicious circle, isn't it??
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  Markfromcali

  Well the kind you mentioned I wouldn't call a spiritual high, just an emotional high. And like many I had those, but it was nothing, really. While a Witness I did have a spiritual high, but it had nothing to do with the Witnesses - I read an article in a science magazine titled quantum consciousness or something, and although I didn't understand most of it something had blew my mind and I was lying on my bed full of energy. It was for sure a qualitatively different experience from the "will you serve more?" crap.
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  Leolaia

  blondie, I'm just like you, and minimus I think you nailed it on the head.....I was bored to tears after years of drudgery in the troof that my mom placed on me...for a long while I believed it was the truth, the true religion, but I never felt more than a little spiritual. I got my highs elsewhere... :)
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  minimus

  I know of more than a few ex Witnesses that seem to enjoy the high of marijuana lately.
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  freedom96

  I never got excited about being a witness.

  The best part of the assemblies was the ending. They never fired me up.
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  minimus

  I'll bet you felt like something was wrong with you because you were thrilled to go home after the convention and the last thing you wanted to do was discuss all the "fine points" of the weekend.