Why would he leave so many loose ends?
Believe me, despite some of my comments about religion and my feelings about the Bible, I do examine myself and my thinking process all of the time. I really do think deeply about my life and the lives of my family, and I really try to examine how I feel. The problem is, my trust was violated..many times. I feel, like most of you, that I have been spiritually raped. That has cause me to realize and conclude that the WTS does not have the Truth.
Because of the violation, I examine everything now to see if it holds water and I have a real hard time now accepting the Bible as the Word of God. I have a hard time accepting Christianity (or any religion)as anything other than a way to control people. Now I know some of you who still believe in Christianity would say that it is a matter of faith. I could accept that if there weren't so many holes that I see.
- If the Bible is really the word of God, why would he allow manuscripts etc. to be destroyed or lost? when you have so many translations of the same book, many which contradict each other, wouldn't it be critical to have those preserved by the Almighty?
- If God's name is so important, why would he allow the pronunciation to be lost?
- How can a book be inspired by God, and yet, be so vague in so many areas...especially in connection with the afterlife, or hope for the dead? When I read of those things, I see the views of the men who wrote. God didn't inspire them to see what the afterlife would REALLY be like.
- If prophecy is there to help people see the "sign" of the time of the end, why is it so confusing and there is no clear interpretation? And how would you ever be able to verify a true prophet?
To have faith you have to have a solid foundation. I just don't see it. I think that some of the problem is that I am truly happy now, but I am trying not to close my mind to personal growth.
Well, those are just a few questions that roll around in my head and that keep the loose screws company. Sometimes when I think too much about it my head feels like a big melon and I just shut down. Too much processing. Am I crazy? I think what got me thinking is that I listened to Little Toe's DA talk yesterday. He spoke of having a profound epiphany about Jesus 6 months prior to his leaving the WTS. He described it as a very deep feeling about his relationship with Jesus. Anyway...Your thoughts (if you don't think I am a nut...well even if you do think I am a nut)?