Hi again Karissa.
Glad to got to the referring to him as "a dirt bag" stage.
Shows progress although I'm sure you will oscillate back and forth a bit (in your mind). And why not he played with your love and emotions. Jerk that he is.
Again, it sounds to me like he used you for a relationship of convenience.
You hold him down and I'll poke him with a stick. varment.
special K