First of all, welcome to the board!!!
I will try to answer your question based on the "bible knowledge" I have received. I was raised in the truth(tm)....I love Jehovah, however, loving Jehovah and being loyal to an organization are 2 different things. Especially when an organization is only concerned about "their rules", not the rules of the god whom they claim they are loyal to. Kinda like in the days of Jesus, he talked about the Scribes and the Pharisees........understand?
The god we have been taught to love is like our "father"...Now, I don't know if you are a parent, (I am) so, I know speaking from a parent's view what unconditional love really is.....There within lies the answer to your question. Think of the prodigal son...he was welcomed back...with NO restrictions..
Whether you decide to go back to an organization is your choice......but returning to Jehovah is quite another....If you have any questions, please feel free to pm me..
Take care and keep posting....
Codeblue