Thats where the pain and anger come from.
Got my Forty
You have every right to feel that pain and anger. Shit I hated my family for what they forced from me and on me. I continually wonder where I may have been if given the opportunity. Just try not to focus on that aspect of you life and know as you said YOU have accomplished and are successful at that which you are doing now.
I?m sure even if given the opportunity many would choose a different path, because we have learned and learning is not failure. You know much more than the any other person who has not been subjected to what we were. Your life?s lessons are different than others?and this is far from any failure.
I truly believed when I finished college ? at a late age?I would change in some magnificent way... but that was far from the truth. I am me and my life which was directed in a large way by my father and the witnesses still is me. I was still angry, I was still hurt and confused. And in learning to let that anger and rage go over all the ?what if?s? is when I truly knew who I was and that even prior I was successful.
You do not give yourself enough credit IMO.
Hugs
Cassi