Today has not been too good. Yesterday, while I was in Sydney for the day with a friend (to have a break and do a girlie shopping day)..............I received a phone call from my brother to inform me that a very special cousin of mine in Italy had committed suicide. I was devastated, she was so special and we had been close.
So here I was driving back from Sydney last night knowing a loved one was dead! I rang my relatives in Italy and cried alot.
I decided that it would be good for me to get out and try to think about something else. I rang my neighbour and asked if she wanted to go to do some grocery shopping and have lunch out. So off we go. It was raining and cold........... I do love that kind of weather, but today it made me feel very sad.
We arrived at the supermarket and just as I got out of the car I noticed an idiot pushing a baby stroller as if he was racing someone. When I looked closer I notice it was the bastard that abused my child!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG.............what went through my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And you should have seen the look on his face when he saw me! He was with a dub couple and their little girl, about 3. Mmmmmmmmmm, the pedo has obviously been reinstated (not that he was ever df'ed for sexual abuse) and some new members of that congo are trying to help the troubled man without knowledge of his past.
How did I feel????????????? I cannot put my feelings into words . All I know is that I really want to ring the only elder left in that congo that knows he is a pedo. I want to tell him what I saw and that I may go to the media with that and if any other kids are abused by that pig I will be the first to make trouble for the borg. As he is the only one left in that congo who knows (because the 2 elders did their best to keep the abuse quiet, and that involved df'ing me) I want to tell him I will hold him personally responsible if he does it again!
I am soooooooooooooooo angry, sooooooooooooo sad, sooooooooooo resentful.............the last thing I needed to be reminded of today was all the sh*t I went through in the borg. Feeling as I do, the grief of my cousin's death.................I really feel overwhelmed today.
Sorry if I sound negative and bitter, but I do believe I am with friends here. Thanks for reading.
Cheers, Bliss