I've was df'd over 6 years ago after spending all of my life a JW. I remember thinking I could never step foot in a church out of guilt or fear.
However, I am feeling a loss of some kind of Christian fellowship....I think I read a few other posts regarding this need for some of you.
I knew I would not go back to a KH, either. So, I struggled with this dilemma of not wanting to attend a KH, yet feeling guilty for trying a different church. In the meantime, I was continually getting invites from workmates and schoolmates to "visit" their Willow Creek-associated church. I kept saying "no" because of guilt, yet I always stressed the need to associate with Christians and participate in self-help groups they organized.
What to do? I finally said "yes" and tagged along with my co-worker one Sunday. I was not prepared for the upbeat music and sermons! We actually stood and clapped....and sang along. The sermon made me laugh at times....and feel choked up at other times. The topic was regarding "kindness"....and I was completely amazed at the positive feeling I carried with me all day! What a relief....
I may not become an official member so soon....but I will certainly go back for more encouragement.
In college, we learned that religion/church is for people, not for God. God does not need religion, people do! Hence, people become involved for themselves only....and that is okay.
--Still Finding me