The internet only helped me solidify and clarify in my mind what I was already feeling - that the WTS was full of crap! It also helped me to diminish the feelings of guilt that I had by seeing the reality of the WTS. Two sites in particular - this forum and Randy Watter's website. My email discussions with Randy were greatly helpful as was reading the book "Releasing the Bonds", along with, of course, Ray Franz' books. I would have had NO exposure to these books if it weren't for the Internet. I also wouldn't have realized how many honest, open-minded, rational, reasonable and caring people were 'apostate'. I thought they were all the bitter, vehemently opposed people we are told about as JW's. What I've realized is that, rather than trying to escape the 'rules' of the Bible, they are simply realizing that being a Christian is not tied up in their association with a mind-controlling cult, but rather about developing a relationship with Jesus Christ. As JW's we were told that apostates were simply rebellious people who wanted to defy all Bible principles and live a life of debauchary. While that may be true in some cases (like mine...lol), for the most part that is just BS propaganda. Thanks to this forum, the (mostly) wonderful people in it, Randy Watters, and several other prominent 'apostates', I have seen the truth behind the WT$ and all it's machinations.