Hi all thanks for all the reply.
Ok some of you said i should have noted this site is all ex witnesses i already knew that.
Ok i never did go to the meeting on sunday and am still not sure if i will go to any at all if things dont change in the next few days or so.
The reson i was gona go back was for selfish resons i supose 80% selfish and 20% for the truth.
I have been out of the truth over 11 years and like my life outside.
I supose i will now explaine what it was that has happen to make me even consider going through that againe.
Ok when i was 16-17 and still in the truth i met a sister that compleatly changed my life we fell in love and she ended up being disfelowshiped because of us having intercorse more than once this was about 1 year after geting together, anyway i was reproved and stayed on in the truth having to cut all my asotiation with her. Well about 3 months later i was out with a brother who was not to strong in the truth getting drunk with him. Well he told me if i had 1 cigerett with him he would buy me all my drinks for the rest of the night, So i agreed.
I actualy loved doing it i got sutch a kik from doing what i wanted to do for a change so caried on smoking, Elders came round with the usual are you repentant shit so i told them "NO" i aint i like it and i dont gona stop so make me disasotiated i dont want disfellowshipping i wana disasotiate my self. so thats what heppend.
Well about 6 months l8r i met kerry againe and we got back together ended up living together "in sin of corse" this woman was my first true love and i have never forgoten her and i belive she is my soul m8.
anyway we lived together for about 6 months then the relationship came to a nasty end (unfortunatly we was teenagers in love).
Well i bumped into kerry againe about a month ago she is now back in the truth and reinstated.Well anyway we exchanged hugs and phone numbers and aranged to call to arange a dinner out.
Well we met for diner the following monday and instantly got on together it was like we had never been apart, She told me that she was going to meet me and tell me it had been nice to see me but goodby (because of the truth) But that she realy didnt want to do that after seeing me againe and getting on so well. Well after speaking on the phone with her she said she realy wanted to be with meagaine but she canot leave the truth againe like she did last time because of her children this time and because it hurt so many people last time round.
Well me being me all the old fealings had come rushing back and i have to say i love her and want to be with her so i made the desision to bite the bullet and go back to the truth.
Like i said i havnt yet and dont know if i will with how things are going, but thats anouther story.
sorry all for the spelling