I have no idea about anything anymore. Some days I feel like I have absolutely no beliefs at all. Other days I feel like I have figured some of it out. And sometimes it's more than I can bear. I feel like my journey is not going anywhere at a rapid pace.
I’m afraid that’s what happens to most people leaving a mind-control cult. When you’re inside, everything is easy, and why is that?
1) You don’t have to decide anything
2) You just do as you’re told
3) Everybody else decides everything
4) You have no responsibility
When you suddenly LEAVE the cult, there is nobody but you who must take responsibility of your own life. YOU will have to decide what to do and what not to do. YOU will have to answer for your own actions, and you can’t blame anyone else if something goes wrong.
The reason many actually do enjoy cult-life is the fact they’re not responsible for their own lives. Others are deciding everything, and they just follow “God”. Its strange rally, and you don’t need to look far to find similarities. Just look at the typical Christian, in any church, and you will find similar patterns.
If they go outside a cold winter day and the steps are icy, interesting patterns pops up:
1) If they go out, and they do NOT fall and break a leg – Smokey helped them.
2) If they slip and fall, it was Satan who made them stumble.
Either way, it’s really not their responsibility – it’s always someone else to thank, prize or hate.
In your situation now you have come into a situation where many thoughts needs to be sorted out, and many questions needs answers. If I may give you an advice from personal experience, don’t rush it. Answers will come, and you will adjust just fine if you let time work for you.
Taking responsibility of your own life can be scary. You can’t blame nobody but yourself if anything goes wrong – and deep down in the back of your scull is all the threats, lies and indoctrinations from the Watchtower buried. Every now and then these statements pop up. “Isn’t this just what the Watchtower warned about?”
Fact is, my friend, the Watchtower knows perfectly well making self fulfilling prophecies is a powerful tool – and they know for certain people will experience exactly what you do now when they leave. Many are scared, and return to their old jail and life behind bars. Where everything is “secure” – and you don’t need to take responsibility. But that’s no life. Life IS making decisions, to decide what you want and do not want.
As for religious questions, belief or no belief in God, Bible, death, heaven, porneia, Hell, paradise or blood – forget about it – for now. If you just study a bit – and you take one step at the time, you will get more than enough information to make your own decision about these things.
Don’t rush – there is more than enough time. I have it from inside sources Mr. Arman Geddon is late – again…….
Yakki Da
Kent
"The only difference between God and Adolf Hitler is that God is more proficient at genocide."
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