Maybe I will change with time, but I personally don't want to see my mother. There is too much pain, too wide of a gap now in beliefs and too much to catch up on. Unless she was willing to start anew, no talk of the past, no playing catch up, if she was willing to just figure out who I am NOW, not who I was or could have been in her eyes. But I don't know if she is capable of that.
I don't ache for HER. I don't really like her and never have. I think she was f***ed up before JW and thought it would be a crutch, and it is, but with or without the religion, I am glad she is out of my life.