Welcome, anuva. I am a non-Jehovah's Witness married to a JW. Though I love my man dearly, I took a different path than you. I carefully researched the doctrines of the Jehovah's Witnesses, and decided they were not Christian. I find their beliefs that anybody that is not a Jehovah's Witness is pagan and therefore, "worldly", and therefore, to be avoided, to be cruel and unchristian. Even this past week I heard the speaker remind parents that they must even reject their own children if they associate with the world.
Studying the bible is a commendable activity, and the Christian way of life (love God, love your neighbour) is a beautiful way to live. Continue your studies of the bible, anuva. But please, don't allow yourself to become as bitter and accusatory as schizm.