Did You Believe Either You Were Being "Blessed" or Being "Disciplined"? (page 2)

toreador

Min, are you retired or are you posting from work? I am the Gestapo and need to know. JK

95stormfront

I know most of you believe this belief is hogwash but did you accept these thoughts as JWs?
I had some doubts but for the most part I did accept it. I always felt something was phony about the whole deal.

I did too....

Even when I was studying, all the way up to and through baptism something in the back of my mind was telling me, "this is bull$h!t"!!!

.....and I didn't listen.....

I tried praying to Jehoober......I really did......

...but the omniscient sock puppet never answered....

I believed the whole pack of crap! In fact, last year was a particularly bad year for me, and I thought for sure that Jehovah was allowing me to be tried, so that I could be stronger later. WHATEVA! I feel a little crazy now, and when my family calls me to tell me things like "Satan is really busy, and he's happy you're not serving Jehovah" I can't help but roll my eyes and wonder WHY I EVER LET THAT WORK ON ME!

Do you tend to feel "smarter" or more "enlightened" now?

minimus

FallGirl, I was always a bright bulb.

toreador

If you were a bright bulb "as" a witness then how come you no longer believe it minimus?

Mary

I just believed I was cursed!!!

minimus

Toreador, I was joking. I am a dimwit.

Piph

Oh, I was sure I was always the center of Jehover's attention...LOL

In the past couple of years when I was still a JW, I was getting in trouble with the elders a lot...or it seemed like a lot...it was actually only two or three times but the sheer trauma of it was enough to make it seem like a constant thing. That's when my belief that something bad happening to me meant I was being tested...was tested. I really couldn't see how God could let something so obviously traumatizing happen to me when it was supposed to be HIM helping me through the elders.

(Of course I brain-washed myself out of that one when I made the connection that I was just like Job and the elders were "false comforters"...it's amazing the lengths children [emotionally stunted people] will go through to keep their parent [the idea of God] perfect in their eyes.)

Did You Believe Either You Were Being "Blessed" or Being "Disciplined"?

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