i hear ya steve...
i haven't been to a meeting in over two years and am still having a hard time saying to myself that holidays aren't "bad". my parents were baptized when i was a tot, and were pretty devout. i of course, had found many other reasons along the way why not to celebrate (commerciality of christmas, etc.,) my wife on the other hand, although her parents were strict, had no problem leaving it all behind(she's a little more carefree than i, she enjoys the shallowness of it all).
anywho, the point is that after two years away, i still can't bring myself to go through with it. my wife's birthday is coming up next week and she's gonna get PISSED if i don't get her anything.
oh well, more beer money for me...hahahahahahahha
je pense, donc, je suis