Rocketman, I just have to ask a few questions. Please indulge me.
During your fade, did you ever have altruistic moments?
Did you ever try to help others see the inconsistencies? Did you ever sort of throw out hints about the REAL TRUTH to others who asked questions?
During the time you served as elder and saw through the sham....did you ever "sway the jury" to keep from harassing or dividing other families?
Did you ever feel a connection with others you saw fading...or a connection with others that you saw who weere questioning things and not buying the anwers given?
Do you think your fade will have had a positive affect on any of the others in your family or congregation? Or will anyone notice?
Do you feel the fade was strictly for your own sense of principles and being true to yourself or did you try to make a difference "for the cause" of seeking real truths?
Thank you. Tula