As you may have noticed, I have returned from the search for my grandfather. The story is much too long to simply post in this message. I will post the story soon.
I will tell you though, that after 40 years, I did locate my grandfather whom I had not seen in 40 years.
"I thought I'd never see you again." He told me.
I felt the same. One more of my lost family members found. As well, I travelled to Santa Baraba to see my mother's cousin who didn't even know I existed.
This year alone I have found and contacted close to 10 family members that I had not seen since age 2. Some I had never met. They all had one thing in common though; they knew my mother. Each time I find myself more jealous by the fact that they had a life with her. They shared stories of laughter and tears at the side of the woman who bore me; the woman I never knew.
Though I have found my mother, because of her attempted suicide, I will never really know who she was. I can only live vicariously though the memories of family whom I never knew.
To be continued...
Bryan
Have You Seen My Mother