When ever this subject comes up it reminds me of how all of this came to my attention only after leaving the troof.
One thing in particular is, I realized that the Question is provided for us, not by us and the answer is provided for us, not by us.
Then we eagerly raise our hands and "hear" ourselves stating the "provided answer" as if it was our own.
If it involved, "lets say how many hours we ought to spend in service" I would hear myself condeming myself, because I always was counseled that I needed to be more active.
When another part of me felt they demanded too much.
So what is the result?? Shame from self condemnation and anger at being overworked??
This gets more complicated as it goes on. Confusion confusion confusion.
Outoftheorg