by vitty 11 Replies latest jw friends
Physically I'm still there but barely. Mentally I started leaving after I decided that Jehovah could not possibly approve of the dirty back stabbing tactics I experienced and saw going on in the organization with apparent approval of the leadership. I guess that I'm now completely gone from an emotional and mental standpoint.
FM
For 2 years, I was neglecting my meeting attendance because I didn't want to bring my two children, who are young. Whoever I studied with always laid the guilt trip on me telling me that I have to bring my kids because Armegedon could happen at any time and at least you'd all be safe and saved in the kingdom hall. It just didn't seem right that they could sit still for that long so I could listen to a meeting.
2 years later, and 4-5 months ago, I started having my doubts on the blood issue. The though that fragments were allowed, and organs for that matter, but not blood got me thinking. Then, learning more and more about armegedon (their version), left me with statements that made no sense. The final point came when at my last Sunday meeting, there was a talk about the 'primetime soap operas' and how we shouldn't watch them 'so as to keep our minds clean'. Immediately, I thought, "Well, there goes my Sunday nights (the only night each week btw) that my husband unbelieving mate and I relax, sit and watch tv together." So all in all, I waited 3 months before ceasing all activity w/jw.
