Namasti,
I acknowledge your experiences as being obviously negative and causing those feelings in you. However, your experiences are not my experiences and visa versa. My experience does not minimize the reality of yours. There are a lot of people who are "damaged" by the religion and/or persons within the religion, and yet at the same time there are many people like myself who are not damaged by it because we happened to be spared contact with some of the worst individuals in it and/or decided to depart long before any serious damage could be done. So, I feel for you, and recognize your feelings and acknowledge them as being very real and based on very real experiences... but at the same time my own experiences are very real as well. I cannot form a hateful opinion of the religion based on my experience... but I do in fact realize it's fallacies... if I didn't I wouldn't be out of the religion and here talking with you. I'm attempting to keep a balanced point of view so as not to be extreme in one way or another. It's difficult to see what really is true during extremes.