Hiya Rod P....welcome.....i wish you well....and of course every body else too......
Rod i was amazed to read your life....i would like to hope that you fine some peace and tranquility....
and that goes to everony too...........
You know.....i am so lucky....i escaped being a JW by a whisker.....by what i read about every ones experiences.....you all are amazing......some of your stories blow my mind away.....
On top of it all i stopped talking to the bloke who gave me on line lessons.....he was more than manic in his ways..he was depressed.......and still is...he live from hand to mouth becoz he thinks thats the way to be.....he introduced me to a friend of his....she is cool.....takes me for what i am....that is not wanting to be a JW.....but she is depressed.....very much so......
BUT me...na...i'm not depressed......but i do get down sometimes.....thats coz of work.....i am an auxiliry nurse....and what i see makes me sad.....makes me think i am so very lucky to have what i have and the health i have.......
May be i just don't unstand what ex JW's went through...i can imagine but not feel it......but i do understand the upper hand and ideology......but you get ideology in most companies......work hard and you can get some where.....yeah sure you can.....
When i had online studies whith this friend of mine....after a few months i was wanting and willing to be a JW...even tho some things didn't seem to fit into place...i just thought i would accept them....sometime it made me confussed......and sometime i felt i would find answers along the way....then it came to Jesus and the cross...that was it.....i beleieved it was not for me.....
So noe i feel i am searching again over for my spirituality......
I think i have found it.....and i am working on it......i don't feel down about it.....but to me it make sense....It it the Gospel of Thomas.....gospel 77b..."Split wood, I am there. Lift up a rock, you will find me there."......so Jesus is every where....thats nice...it makes me feel cosy inside.....
Thomas says so many things that Jesus said...some bizare...and some so comforting....at least Jesus is there......and so is God....and Thomas said we have the kingdom here on earth now....(maybe that was when he wrote his gospels.....).......today it doesn't feel like it.....
But anyways..thank you for your time.....
I am also a newbie.....but not so new as Rod P....and some others.....
I strive to find a spiritual balanace in my life.....
it's my Birthaday......27 01 64 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME............
AND .....i love a hug..........and i love cats......
good nite...God Bless....XXXXx